It's been a little while since I posted, so apologise for leaving you hanging. It's been a week of trying to figure myself out and try to accept the magnitude of the problems and recovery process. It's only over the past week or so it's really struck me, just how dysfunctional my way of thinking… Continue reading Dysfunctional Thoughts
I cannot keep up with myself at the moment. One minute, I feel crazy motivated and as if everything is getting back on track. I've taken back my control and I'm beating all things mental illness. Depression, ED, anxiety. I'm in charge. Then all of a sudden, flip reverse it and I feel like I'm… Continue reading Anxiety 2, Caitlin 0.
Now I'm not talking just weight but I have had such an eye opening, inspiring therapy session, that taught me a lot about myself, that I hadn't before realised or acknowledged. But, yes, my weight too has increased. On which I have been congratulated by multiple friends and family members. When I say congratulated, I… Continue reading I’ve gained a lot this week.
Everyone with an Eating Disorder will understand the pain, stress, annoyance, reliance, comfort and every other feeling associated with the challenge of 'Meal Planning'. There's times I get really into it and if I'm feeling positive it can really help boost motivation for the week ahead (whether it lasts or not, is a different matter,… Continue reading The Mammoth Task of Meal Planing
"You have a really good day, then weigh yourself. It's self sabotage." The words my therapist said to me at my last session. The words that have gone round and round in my mind. The words I know to be true but struggle to do anything to change. Currently I weigh myself multiple times a… Continue reading The Problem with Weighing and Weight